Need to Rededicate My Efforts

So, I went ahead and had a mini unfill.  Dawn removed .1cc.  When she showed me what it looked like it was miniscule!  I really didn't see how that little bit could solve my sliming problems but voila! it did!!!!  Yesterday is the first time since early Dec. when I haven't PB'd or slimed once.  It is amazing what a small adjustment can do.  It has only been a couple of days, but I can't say I feel any increased hunger.  As a matter of fact, because I was able to eat more solidish food (had a fish burger made with tilapia and shrimp yesterday, no bun) and not slime I felt more satisfied and did not feel the need to supplement my food intake with sliders.  Today I have a renewed sense of hope that I can make this tool work for me and not against me.  It is wonderful to not feel as though I am warring with my body.

 

Thank you to everyone that provided input on my last post.  I really did think about everything you had to say and do feel like I have made the right decision for my body.  I do believe it is just as counter-productive to be over-filled as it is to be under-filled.  I am not sitting with 5.5 ccs in my 10 cc band.  This feels right for now.  Let's hope I can build on this momentum and get the scale moving again.

 

In an effort to become completely honest with myself about my food consumption and take responsibility for eating healthier and in a "band appropriate" way, I am going to log what I eat every day here.  I am also going to log my physical activity because it is important to both my physical and mental well being to move my body every day.

Friday, February 4, 2011
Food:
B =

Vanilla Premier Protien Shake with
frozen strawberries                                                       210 calories    30gr. protien
L =

4oz. tunafish salad with veggies and 1T light mayo         115 calories    28gr. protien
1oz. LaPanzanella Croccantini crackers                        110 calories      4gr. protien
1C. Tomato Basil Soup                                                150 calories      3 gr. protien
D =

1C homemade Green Chili                                             50 calores        0gr. protien
4oz. pork in green chili                                                 235 calories     32gr. protien
S =

Dole Fruit and Juice Bar                                                  50 calories     0gr. protien
                                                                      Totals =   920 calories     97gr. protien

Exercise:
Group Power Class (weight lifting)                                         1 hour
Treadmill                                                                              30 minutes

Thanks again to everyone for the wonderful support.  It does help.

To Fill or Not To Fill

That is the question.

I have been struggling since my second fill but shortly before my 3rd fill I thought that everything was worked out.  However, I think I am sliming too much.  I've had my worst 2 episodes since fill number 3 on Jan. 12th.  The first episode happened when I was eating out with a couple of friends (who don't know about the band).  I believe that it was a result of eating too fast and not chewing enough.  I have a very hard time remembering I am a banded person once I get out and start socializing at a restaurant.  I know that it is old habit to eat and talk and not be mindful, so I know that I probably brought that one on myself.  It is the first time however that it has resulted in a honest-to-god throw up though.  That was scary and I was incredibly uncomfortable (not to mention the 30 minutes I spent in the bathroom that I had to try to explain to my dinner companions).

The second episode happened on Saturday.  I had my normal protien shake for breakfast around 8am (I have found that I cannot eat solid food in the morning anymore).  Then I met a my girlfriend for brunch/lunch and shopping around 11:30.  We went to a nearby restaurant and I ordered the huevos rancheros (eggs scrambled).  The dish came out (it included eggs, chorizo and black beans on a tortilla smothered in green chili and melted cheese - I know not great).  I was being very mindful and took really small bites of only the egg with green chili and some cheese.  No tortilla. No chorizo.  Just little bites.  I had about 3 small bites - spaced out - and immediately went to the bathroom where I had a sliming/throw up incident to rival the earlier one.  What the hell?  It seems to have gotten to a point that the only food that doesn't cause me to slime is liquid (protien shakes) and mushy (tuna salad).  If it is solid, I almost always slime just a little (if not more).

BUT, I do not have heartburn or GERD and I can drink with no problem (even more than sipping).  So....do I get a teeny unfill?  Or, do I wait it out til my next appt. in April?  I really hate to spend so much time in the bathroom, especially when I am out socializing with friends.  But my level of restriction does not seem to fall in the same catagory as Gen's or some others who have recently had trouble.

What I am concerned about is that even with the difficulty eating solid food, I am not losing weight.  I have stalled out again and not lost any more in the last 2 weeks.  Is it possible that because I cannot eat solids easily that I am stuck because I have been satiating my hunger with sliders?  Would I be better off with a little unfill so I can eat more solids?  Or, am I just a huge woosie?

Any advice would be greatly appreciated.  I am still really trying to learn how to use my band and I am frustrated as hell at this point.

In other news, it was a balmy -14 degrees here in Denver as I drove to work this morning.  Have I ever told you all how much I hate Colorado sometimes?
Be Well